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Friday, May 02, 2003
Woo. Up bright 'n early because my sisters missed the bus and required my services as chauffeur.

I had a lot of stuff I wanted to do today but I don't know if I will... might go back to sleep. I don't know.

Interesting news tidbit from http://www.imdb.com --
Courtney Love Seeks Bandmates
Hole star Courtney Love is advertising for musicians to join her new band. The Celebrity Skin hitmaker is seeking a new bass player and guitarist - but asks that only girls apply. She has placed an advert in this week's edition of New York magazine Village Voice. It reads, "Join Courtney Love's touring band and get famous, see the world! Must play bass or guitar (really play), and look like a goddess. No boys." Love is currently working on songs for a new album due for release this summer. She is due to play Britain's Reading and Leeds festivals in August.


Kinda wish there was some sort of contact info given. I'm a girl and I play bass... and I'd really wanna be in a band with Courtney Love 'n stuff. Or something. ^_^; You know, get famous off of her like she got famous off of that guy she killed. Yeah.

I wonder if I could afford cable internet at forty dollars a month. The parents won't go for it so I might have to do it myself.

Thursday, May 01, 2003
I was getting ready for work this morning and Santa Monica was running through my head so as I was gathering my things to leave the house, I dug out my Everclear "Sparkle and Fade" CD to listen to in the car. Hadn't listened to it in years, but I still remembered a lot of the words. And Summerland almost made me cry. I remembered listening to the lyrics back in junior high - forget about our jobs at the record store, forget about all the losers that we know - and just the thought of leaving everything and going somewhere else. I thought about it then and it's so weird that I'm thinking the same thing now. More so, because I do have a sucky job and I do know a lot of losers that I wouldn't miss... and I remembered just listening to the CD and how great it was. It just seemed to go so well with this morning because the sun was shining and the weather's nice and I was awake and I was singing along and I can't believe I stopped listening to 90's alternative music for so long. I miss it.

I hold Lucy indirectly responsible. :p

Mollie came home from work and went to play DDR but for some reason the playstation wouldn't recognise the Konamix disc. So we put in the Disney Mix and it worked, which is weird because it never used to recognise that disc. But we put on the Disney mix and guess what's on it? My Summer Love. *squeals* I love that song. I think I'm gonna have to go play it.

Wednesday, April 30, 2003
Nobody comments in my damn blog anymore. *sniffle*

I had a splinter in the tip of the middle finger on my right hand last night. I thought I got it all out but I must not have because it hurts like hell when I touch anything with it and now there's a weird little mark there that looks like I burnt it or something.

10:38 to run a mile today. Started trying to use the "Butt Blaster" machine because I desperately need to get rid of these Strong Sad legs I've got... so I do the hip adductors, abductors, hamstring curls, and now the butt machine. I've been working on my arms and chest a lot too. It's been about a month since I started and I think my arms are getting more toned and less jiggly, which is totally sweet. Maybe in another month I'll be able to wear tank tops without cringing.

My fiction writing class starts in two weeks. I haven't received anything from Pitt yet saying "this is your schedule for the summer term and blah blah blah," but I've already gotten a bill. Four hundred ninety dollars due on May 17 (that's Trent Reznor's birthday, for those who care -- one of those random facts left over from my days of gothdom). Sigh. More money I don't have. I'm thinking this will go on my credit card because I doubt I'll have it all in my checking account by then and I don't want to bother the grownups.

Tuesday, April 29, 2003
Yesterday, I made my body do something I've never been able to make it do before.

I ran a mile in ten minutes. I was at the gym and this time I brought my CD player with me and I was listening to Ixnay on the Hombre and it was good music to run to... need to burn a CD of more happybouncypunkishmusic like that. Good stuff.

... and what the hell did you think I was talking about? *g*

Work is really kicking my ass. I tell myself that i'm only here to make money while i'm not in school and this is not what i'm doing for the rest of my life and that makes it bearable, but the job still sucks. I don't feel like I'm going anywhere. In school the passage of time is measured in exams and finals and the weeks pass by, but here every week is the same... I'm measuring time in days until jury duty and days until classes start and can't figure out what days I need to take off in May (I could call in) and oh god I still live at home and I will never get my own place and I don't know what I'm doing and I'm just stagnating.

I want to live in the dorms this fall so I can try to join clubs and meet people and make friends but it's just too impractical.